3 Series

Reading a comment made by a friend, to a friend in a Facebook makes me realized that I was not alone in facing a dilemma, which in fact is not a dilemma at all, but the truth that I have to embrace when the time comes.

Before you start saying that age is just a number, let me just say this, I DON'T BUY IT. I am not being bitter about my age, but who wouldn't wish that you'll be 25 forever, or whatever age that you thought you are at your best form, be it physically or otherwise.

Whatever people would say to me, I'll still carry a sadness that soon, very soon enough, I would become a thirty something. No more twenty-something. Of course, I am hoping that when I finished my first year of being thirties, I would feel much better than how I am feeling now.

The thing that I am glad about by having years behind me is that I could definitely say that I am more mature, more in control of myself, and look at life being less analytical. Of course, you might say that maturity does not correspond with age, but I am not using your benchmarking. I am competing and measuring up against myself, so I am able to say that I deserved a pat in the back for what I am today. Angkat bakul you say? Sukati akulah.

I have stop reading or listening to all the motivation talk which I now deemed as crap as now I have been taking my life a day at a time, by still holding on to my own basic life principles. Religion does help, and I am glad that I am getting a little bit closer to understanding of my religion at this age because I have become less resistance to the facts and idea being presented, as compare to 10 years ago.

I have become more accepting to whatever physical things I carry on my body, well, except the excess fat of course. I do not feel threathen anymore standing next to a beautiful girl, in fact I cherish the beauty that they have. I do noticed that I have received less second-look by men in the past 2 years, but that doesn't bother me too. It makes life less complicated that way, I dress up according to what I want, or what Babai prefers without thinking too much of other people's opinion anymore. Don't be mistaken, I still like to dress up. I am a woman, it's my privilage ok. If you can't accept that, sukati kau lah..

Sounds bitchy huh? I still need to once in a while.

Oh ya. My cooking has also improved tremendously. That is from a girl who learn how to cook only at the age of 18, haha. I appreciates the positive and negative comments made by Babai, and I look forward to become more experimental in my cooking, instead of doing a standard daily cooking.

In terms of money.. er... I still couldn't see any improvement. Of course my salary scale increased every year, but my needs changed along the way. My taste have changed too, so it is almost impossible to become a millionaire in this life time without growing my money wisely.

I think I am just babling again without any direction. When it is nearer to the day, I will try to write a post which reflects more than a quarter century of my life in conjunction of my 'coming-off age'. We'll just wait and see la. No promise to myself.